God has placed on our hearts the desire to adopt and a love for orphans who are needing to be a part of family- not just our family, but to know the love of God's Kingdom here on earth. We have struggled with our own weaknesses of fear, unknowns, and excuse after excuse, but we came to the realization that God is bigger than all of that.
So, here we are...nothing looks different from the outside- our daily routine (whatever routine we can manage!) hasn't changed, we don't look any different, and we are still involved with the same things as before. At the same time, everything has changed. A piece of my heart (quite a large chunk) is halfway across the world in a country that has been battered with civil war, disease, starvation, and poverty. My prayers and thoughts are charged with pleas to God for a child I have never seen and may not be born yet. I have given up on any sort of control in this situation and have been forced to rely FULLY on God. It is a somewhat scary place to be, but I believe that God does His best work when I do less work. We feel very vulnerable to have our hopes and desires so deeply rooted in something that has no guarantees- but I guess that's how all of life is, right? Just another lesson to trust that God knows what He is doing.
We ask for your prayers during this time. Prayers for our fears and anxieties to be relieved, for us to find joy during the waiting, for the well-being of the child who will become a part of our family, and for the future of our growing family. We hope and pray that we can continue to live in the will of God and trust in Him no matter what.
Now for less of me and more of Him:
"For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love he predestined us to be adopted as his sons through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will— to the praise of his glorious grace, which he has freely given us in the One he loves."
It's pretty simple. God created us not knowing what we would choose to do, who to be, or who to follow. Regardless of that, He chose to adopt us, through Jesus, into His family so that we would be rewarded with grace, love, and eternal life. This has been our greatest example and reasoning for adopting. As undeserving as I am, I have been given the greatest gift of all through adoption. We feel called to live out that 'no strings attached' love through adoption within our family.
So, hopefully by the summer/fall of next year, we will be adding a little Rwandan child to our family. And that makes me smile.