Highland had a lament service last night that they have every year. It is a time that is set aside for members to come and remember the loved one's they have lost, grieve, pray, and remember that Heaven is our home. Zach, Landon, Whitney, Sarah, and I all went along with friends who have been there for us the whole time. It was the most I have cried since Tyler died, but it felt good. There was a candle lighting ceremony and we all lit a candle for Tyler and anyone else we thought of. It was very moving to look at the front of the church and see these small flames that represent such wonderful lives and such great loss. My words are few when I think or talk about Tyler. I miss him the most when I think about our boys not being able to know his voice or sit in his lap. OK, I better move on before I type pages about Ty.
Part 2: Dr. Stories (humorous)
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Story #1: I visited my OB last week, and I had a list of questions to ask him. One of them had to do with nursing. Many women have asked me if I plan to nurse my boys. My answer is yes. I really really hope to nurse them, but not everything is in my control. If they are premies, they might have a lot of problems with nursing, etc. Anyways, a lot of women have suggested that I start to rub my nipples with a washcloth to get them ready for nursing. This always sounded logical to me, but I wanted to ask the Dr. what he thought. So I tried to act very mature and use adult words so I wouldn't giggle my way through the question. I think I said something like, "I am wondering what you think about rubbing nipples to get them ready for nursing..". Unfortunately, I got the strangest look from him. He looked totally confused, so I reworded the question and tried again, "some women have told me to rub my nipples to prepare for nursing. Is there any medical proof to this?" He kept on staring at me and asked "Do you mean after the babies come?" "
***For all you other preggers out there, after I finally explained what I was asking, he told me NOT to rub them. When you do this, your body starts to think that you are nursing which causes you to produce the hormone prolactin. This hormone also causes your body to start labor. Early Labor=Not Good. And then he said that I should contact the lactaction consultants at the hospital with anymore nursing questions. Thanks...thanks.
Story #2: I was supposed to go see the Perinatologist tomorrow to get a sonogram done. He takes some really cool pictures of the boys, and I have been pumped about this appointment for awhile now. His nurse called today to let me know that he broke his hand and can't do anything but consults for the next 2 WEEKS! This totally bummed me out. I really want to see their sweet little faces, hands, feet, hearts, noses....
Two weeks can't pass fast enough.
Alright, drum roll please.......NAMES TO CROSS OFF YOUR LIST:
Tanner, Stephen, Ethan, Casey, Brandon, Jackson & Andrew